**

 “I chose you to transfer to our branch in Paris because I trust you. Do not fail me.”

“Yes, Pres.”

Sunghoon sighs as he closed the door of the President’s room, he had decided. And he doesn’t want to fail his boss. He was on his way back to his office when he saw his friends crowding his door.

“What’s up with you guys?” he asked Suwon, Jaeduc, and Gian.

“N-nothing.” Jaeduc answered but Suwon and Gian pushed him forward so he asked, “we heard you are being transferred, is it true?”

“Wow, it has already spread?”

“There were rumours that someone might be transferred and noting how good you are it is either you are being transferred or you are being promoted when you were called. So? Are you being transferred or being pro—”” Jaeduck didn’t finish his practiced speech because of Suwon.

“You are being transferred!?” Suwon interrupted. Upon hearing Suwon, Jaeduc and Gian also asked in chorus.

“Alright, guys. You lot are being funny. I am being transferred. I am going to Paris. End of discussion.” Sunghoon said, smiling at the comical faces his friends are wearing. His gaze stayed longer at Gian’s face, shaking his head, he went inside his office with his friends in tow.

That evening, Suwon came over to his apartment and asked him the real reason why he accepted the transfer notice.

“Boss stated it in a nice way that he succeeded on persuading me.”

“Sunghoon.”

Noting his friend’s stern voice, he slumped on the sofa. With a hand on his eyes, he answered in a small voice. “I’m letting go, Suwon-ah.”

Suwon sighed. “Why don’t you try confessing first, Sunghoon.”

“No use, Suwon-ah. I do not want him to be awkward to me too. And he is already happy with his girlfriend. What’s the use of confessing? I am finally letting go, Suwon. Please don’t stop me.”

“I am not stopping you. You might find him there, however. So grab it, charge~” Suwon playfully said, fistbumping with Sunghoon.

“I might. And yes, I will charge forward” they both laugh at that.

**

But it is easier said than done. Here he was, on a bar at Paris, drinking his hard liquor as he stares at the bartender who he is having a staring match on. He blinked.

“Ha! I won! No more Devil Springs for you Kang Sunghoon-ssi.” He said in his native tongue. Sunghoon and the bartender got acquainted four weeks ago…

“One of your hard liquor please.” Sunghoon said in his broken French. It has been a month and he is still adjusting to his new environment. Five more months, and he is pretty sure he will forget he even had a crush on his friend. Or so he thought. That is why here he is again on his already favourite bar, thrice in a week already. “Devil Springs for you, Sir.” The bartender said as he put a glass in front of him. He drank it in one go as he asked for another one. “This is hard.” He mumbled, talking about forgetting his feelings.

“Of course it is hard, you asked for it.” The bartender muttered, Sunghoon looked around him and looked up at the bartender when he saw no one was there beside him.

“You talking to me?” Sunghoon said in French and added in Korean “I was not talking to you.” He got surprised when the bartender answered him in Korean. “Oh, you weren’t? I thought you were talking about the liquor I gave you. I am Jiwon by the way. Born and raised in Korea but came here just to get away from all of the tiring things in Korea.”

“Are you always this talkative?” Sunghoon asked, slightly annoyed.

“Ah, sorry. It has been so long since I talked in my native tongue, I’ve been here for three years, you see. What is your name?”

It was the start of their friendship.

“Ah, hyuuuuu~ng. I’m not yet done!” Sunghoon whined to Jiwon.

“No more. And you said you only came here thrice a week, you’ve been coming here every day, you know. What’s wrong?” he noted the sadness in Sunghoon’s eyes.

“Hook me up with someone.” Sunghoon suddenly told Jiwon.

With wide eyes, he asked Sunghoon if he is kidding. “You are drunk.”

“I’m not.” Sunghoon replied but he keeps on bobbing his head and smiling to everyone who went near him. Of course Jiwon shoo-ed everyone, gonna keep his dongsaeng safe.

Jiwon sighed as he looked at Sunghoon, he called upon one of the waiters and told him he’ll be gone for the night. The waiter just nod at him as he went beside Sunghoon, helping him to stand. “Where do you live, Sunghoon?”

“What where do you key in?”

“I said, where do you live”

“You can’t hook me up when I am drunk, hyung. You can’t, really can’t hook me up when I am drunk.”

“No use talking to you. Let’s go to my house.”

“Huh? Hyung, don’t get angry I promise I will call my friends tomorrow when I am sober.” He slurred. Jiwon only catching three or four words. Sunghoon kept on babbling on their way to Jiwon’s house. Jiwon knows the reason why he keeps on drinking and wants to be hooked to someone. He discovered he hadn’t called his friends since he landed on Paris, one thing that he got angry at knocked him on the head.  He also discovered Sunghoon’s preferences and he discovered he likes men. And he is afraid he might not be his friend anymore if ever he found out, Sunghoon received another knock on the head with that statement.

“I can’t just unfriend you, Sunghoon-ah. You have wormed up inside my heart already. You can’t just un-friend a likeable friend, you know.”

He can hook Sunghoon with someone, but he’d rather not. Because he believes love can only be found if you are not looking for it. But if Sunghoon really insists, Jiwon sighs for the nth time that night. He will talk to Sunghoon again when he is sober, he decided.

After a tiring walk from his car to his house, he slumped on the sofa with a sleeping Sunghoon. He positioned Sunghoon in the sofa, as he exhaled deeply. “You are heavy.” He grumbled but caressed the younger’s fringe as he said so. He was about to stand when Sunghoon moved and almost fall off the sofa. Noting how the sofa can’t be a safe place for Sunghoon to sleep, he tried piggybacking Sunghoon and as he succeeded, went to his room and put him on his bed.

Jiwon slumped on the sofa, tiredly. “No more devil springs for you, Sunghoon.” He said to no one. He decided he would sleep on the sofa for tonight.

**

He woke up with a headache, holding his head with both hands, he tried to remember what happened last night and where he is. He can only remember drinking again and then, he blinked, he is in an unknown surrounding.  “What happened?” he mumbled to himself as he tried standing. He slowly walked towards the door and as he opened it, he was welcomed by Jiwon with an apron; he was on his way to the room he was in.

“You are awake. Headache?” he softly asked the younger. “I prepared the aspirin. Just go to the kitchen table, it’s there.”

“Thanks hyung.” Sunghoon mumbled, passing by him with head low and still being assisted by his hands.

As soon as he drank the medicine, he put his head on the table’s surface, enjoying its coolness. He felt a hand ruffling his hair and heard Jiwon’s voice as he asked “So, why do I need to hook you up with someone?”

At that, he instantly rose up, the headache making him grunt, he was about to lean forward to the table’s surface again when Jiwon massaged his head with both hands. He sighed in pleasure.

“I said that? Please don’t mind that, hyung. Just some drunk talk.” He mumbled. “Did I talk a lot hyung?” he nervously asked Jiwon who smirked at him, which he didn’t see because he has his eyes closed.

“You did. But I won’t tell you what~”

They have been friends for a month now. And it feels like they have been friends for years with how they treat each other. Sunghoon is even a known customer on the bar that Jiwon owned. And no one messes with him because no one wants to mess with Jiwon, like that time when someone tried to hit on Sunghoon. Jiwon was not yet around that time, and being the kind Sunghoon, he just entertained the woman but was on a lookout for Jiwon, because he wanted out of the woman hitting on him. As soon as he saw Jiwon walking towards him, he sighed in relief but one look at his face he knows something would happen to the woman, and he was right, a waiter accidentally spilled a glass of margarita on his short dress, the woman went away wet and angry.

Or that time when a man was hitting on Sunghoon, he went and sat beside Sunghoon and talked to him, Sunghoon doesn’t know how to turn someone down so he responded to every question that was asked until Jiwon came to the bar, tired and a bit bitchy when he saw Sunghoon talking to some man. One look at Jiwon’s face, the man went away, hastily saying goodbye to Sunghoon.

“Even if it’s not some drunk talk, I won’t hook you up with someone.”

“Why not?”

“I’m your hyung. Imagine your own brother hooking you up with someone .”

“But you are not really my hyung.”

“Sunghoon” Jiwon sighs. “I won’t hook you up with someone.”

“Arasseo, hyung.” Sunghoon said, smiling, leaning forward, he leaned on Jiwon’s stomach and sighed. “Please continue the massage.” Jiwon just smiled at him.

**

“How’s work?” Jiwon instantly asked as Sunghoon was near where he is, on the sofa. Aside from the bar, their new hideout is Sunghoon’s apartment, or sometimes, Jiwon’s house.

“Hyung! You are here” Sunghoon exclaimed walking towards the sofa Jiwon was in.

“So, how’s work?” Jiwon asked again as he turned the television on.

“It’s good. I have been praised by my boss and… it’s already two months, huh.”

“So you remembered!” Jiwon smiled but then it turned to a frown as he looked at Sunghoon’s face “Yah! I thought you will be happy.”

“I’m happy. It’s just that…” Sunghoon looked at Jiwon “you know my time here is limited.” He sadly said.

“Don’t bring that up, only remember the good things that we shared. I do not want to see you sad” Sunghoon blinked at that and then smiled.

“Why are you spouting those words, hyung?” he chuckled.

Jiwon just smiled at him. “Nothing~” he answered.

“Tomorrow is Saturday, where do you want to go next?” It has been their routine. Every weekend they would go out for sightseeing. Jiwon’s idea since the younger is always home-office-bar-home-office-bar. He needs to see Paris to! That’s what Jiwon always says to Sunghoon until he convinced the younger that they would spend their weekend somewhere not his apartment.

“I still don’t know why we kept on doing this.” Sunghoon asked as he entered the passenger seat of Jiwon’s car.

“Nothing~”

“You always say nothing.” Sunghoon whined.

“Someday you’ll figure it out. For now, let’s just enjoy our time together”

**

“I was trying to make you fall in love with me.”

It was four months after that he figured out. The older has confessed to him and told him he was trying to make him fall in love with him. That is why he can’t let him be hooked up with another person. It was a crush at first, Jiwon said. But as he kept on going back to his bar and kept on blabbing about his life, he feels like they have known each other for years, not just days. Then they became friends, it was one of the happiest days in Jiwon’s life. The day they became friends was the day Jiwon promised to himself, he will make this man happy and his.

 He kept his feelings well hidden, Sunghoon thought. But as he thought of everything that happened between the two of them, their getaways, their time together, everything, he had an epiphany.

“Someday you’ll figure it out. For now, let’s just enjoy our time together”

 And indeed he figured it out. Not just Jiwon’s feelings for him but also his feelings to the older. Sunghoon’s epiphany made his heart beats so fast that he couldn’t sleep. His body is excited to see Jiwon the next day. He tried some exercise to tire his body out but it just won’t. He tried relaxing his body, but it won’t because he kept on thinking about Jiwon. He thought about many what ifs. In the end, he couldn’t sleep. Sunghoon count 6:45am as the big hand passed by the number 12. He hasn’t fallen asleep yet and he can feel a headache already coming. Thinking about his work, he stood up to get ready for work.

He came at the office walking wobbly and feeling hot. Seeing this, one of his co-workers, Fran, who is “always ready” as they dubbed him but is kind and you can always lean on, took a thermometer on his bag and went towards him, checking his temperature.

“Hey, you’ve got a high fever, Sunghoon.”

“Really?”

“What “really”?! You need to go home.”

“But I have work to finish.”

“Give that to me, I’ll finish it. If I can’t, you can finish it tomorrow. I’m pretty sure with just the right medication and rest, your fever will go down and you’ll be ready for work tomorrow.”

“Thanks, Fran. I really feel like a shit right now.”

“Language, Sunghoon. But you are welcome. Come, let me help you back to your apartment.”

“It’s alright, I can manage.”

“I don’t think so. I was watching you earlier, as you walked… I don’t think you can take a cab without falling asleep or without fainting. Come on.”

“Thank you, Fran. Really, thank you.”

“You are welcome. And you are already here for five months, I’ll be sad when you go home. You became one of us already.” Fran tried to continue talking to Sunghoon as they took a cab.

“I know what you feel.  I feel like I’ve been here for years too. But don’t worry, I’m pretty sure I’ll be seeing everyone again someday.”

“You better promise that. But you should not work too much, Sunghoon. Look at what happened. This is because you work too much.”

Sunghoon just laughed it off, well partly because Fran was right, he was working late at night and partly because he can’t just tell Fran that he didn’t sleep last night.

They reached Sunghoon’s apartment and was surprised to see Jiwon going out of his apartment. Fran has been helping Sunghoon staying upright so his hand was around Sunghoon’s shoulder and Sunghoon’s right hand was around his waist. There was an awkward silence between the three of them before Jiwon cleared his throat and looked at Fran. Seeing this, Sunghoon tried to explain who the one holding him is, he doesn’t want Jiwon to misunderstand.

“He is—”

“Sunghoon’s lover, right.” Fran smiles “Everybody knows, Sunghoon.” Still smiling, he looked at Jiwon who looks like he was about to say something but was holding his tongue. “I’m Fran. Please do take care of Sunghoon, he has a fever.”

“What?!” Jiwon was quick on his feet, he took Sunghoon from Fran as he said his goodbye and thank you for walking Sunghoon all the way back to his apartment. As soon as Fran was out of his sight, they went inside and Jiwon assisted Sunghoon all the way to his bedroom. “What did you do that you are having a fever right now?” Jiwon asked as he put Sunghoon to his bed.

“Thinking of you.” Was Sunghoon’s soft reply. With his eyes closed, he didn’t see Jiwon’s surprised face or the smile that blooms that he is trying to hide.

“Y-yah” Jiwon mumbles, not looking at Sunghoon. He stood up but was held back by Sunghoon, holding his hand.

“It’s alright, Fran already give me the medicine. I just need to catch some sleep right now and rest.”

Speaking of Fran “Why did you let him think that we are lovers?” Jiwon asked, Sunghoon opened his eyes and looked at Jiwon, really looked at him. He was still staring at Jiwon when the other averted his eyes from him “Why are you smiling?”

“You don’t want to hyung?” that caught Jiwon’s attention. He looked at Sunghoon, who is still smiling.

“Don’t play with my heart, Sunghoon-ah.” He sternly said and he saw Sunghoon’s playful smile turned to a gentle one. He took one of his hands and caressed it.

“I am not playing with you.” Sunghoon softly said “Actually, I had an epiphany last night. I fell in love with you.”

And a big smile bloom on Jiwon’s face.  

But it was only shortlived.

Because someone called Sunghoon and told him he is going home.

“When?”

“Two days from now.”

**

They haven’t seen each other for months, only when they do video calls would they see each other. They missed each other so much. Paris has a 7 hours difference with Seoul. Their video calls would always start when Sunghoon would be out from work and would end when Sunghoon sleeps. Since Paris has a 7 hours difference with Seoul, Jiwon is the one who keeps on monitoring a workaholic Sunghoon.

It was decided on a whim. During one of their phone calls, he said. “Im going to Korea. I miss you.”

“I miss you too. Are you sure you are going here?” he asked, Jiwon can easily detect the excitement in Sunghoon’s voice, he too is excited with his sudden decision.

“Yes, I’ll just call you. See you later~”

“Wait, what?” but the call was already cut. Leave it to Jiwon to excite him more.

Jiwon was on the airplane when he felt fear creeping on his veins.

What if? I mean, Gian is there. What if when he went home, he changed his mind? What if he is still in love with that guy and he is just faking everything when it comes to me? No, Sunghoon won’t do that. But what if? You know how he is. He is too kind to break my heart. What if I am holding him down? He might not say it but what if—” Seoul, we are landing now in Seoul.

Meanwhile at Sunghoon’s…

The four of them were eating in the ground floor when they heard Anthony talking out loud as he walked passed by them. Anthony is known as the opposite of Sunghoon. His attitude has always been a problem of his co-workers. And he is a jealous guy. He easily gets jealous and his always target is Sunghoon, the guy who is known as the kindest and the most hardworking one in their company. So they should be used to him and his words but today, they fight back.

“Oh look the fag and his friends. ”

Suwon flipped, shocking his friends and even Anthony. “Who are you calling a faggot!?”

“Suwon, sit.” Sunghoon ordered. Suwon sat down clicking his tongue.

“Ooh the fag can order—” Anthony was interrupted by Jaeduc, who is sitting next to Suwon, standing up hastily that his chair fell backwards.

“Jaeduc hyung-ah.” Sunghoon called but Jaeduc just stared at Anthony, not hearing at all, with so much hatred that even Sunghoon was glad he was not the one being targeted with that hatred.

“Say whatever you want, your jealousy and attitude won’t get you anywhere.” With hatred in his voice, Jaeduc said.

“Let’s not make a scene here guys” Gian muttered, as he took a spoonful of rice.

“Oooh says the one who made him suffer.” Gian choked at that. He turned to Sunghoon as the latter pat him on the back. “Don’t you know the fag has been pining—”

“Anthony.” Sunghoon finally talked, their co-workers who were listening perked up. Someone even shouted “Stop using offensive words, so what if Sunghoon is homosexual. You never know he might be a bisexual at that. Stop discriminating people.” Sunghoon turned to the woman who shouted and smiled, nodding his head at her which earned a short giggles and squeals from the group of ladies sitting in their left. It looks like his co-workers are ready to defend him. He then turned towards Anthony and said while smiling. “Is there something wrong with liking someone who is the same gender as me? You won’t get promoted if you won’t change your attitude. Please change your stinky attitude. Get away from my sight.” More laugh was heard and Anthony went away with a poker face, hiding his embarrassed face.

His phone rang and one look on the caller made him smile wide, everything that happened earlier already gone on his memories as he answered the call.

**

Jiwon has arrived and already on his way. The younger couldn’t help but radiate the happiness that he feels knowing that he is going to see his lover in a couple of minutes, without him knowing though, Jiwon just parked his car when he called the younger and is on his way to surprise him. Jiwon’s smile was frozen on his face when he sees Sunghoon and another man seriously talking, too closely for his own taste.

“Gian.” Sunghoon said, acknowledging his long time friend and former-love-but-not-lover. He doesn’t have any grudge or hate against him so he acknowledged him with a smile in a formal way. “What is it?” he asked, knowing that he was stopped by him to talk.

“Anthony said it because he is jealous of you. He has always been jealous of you. With your good looks and you being great at work. I don’t know if what he said was true but if I made you suffer, I’m sorry Sunghoon. I am really really sorry. I didn’t notice you were suffering because of me. I should have observed you more carefully.”

 “It’s alright. I have moved on already. And I am happy now. You do not have to say sorry. It was my choice to begin with. And I’d rather like to say, thank you, because if I didn’t have my heart broken and I didn’t have the courage to accept the offer and go to Paris for six months, I might not be able to find him, well, sooner. I know we are meant to meet each other it’s just the push made it sooner than later.”

“I can very well see how happy you are, Sunghoon.” Gian said, smiling wide, relief in his eyes “and I am happy because you are happy.”

“Thank you Gian.”

“Sunghoon-ah”

Somebody called and Sunghoon swiftly turned around. He knows that voice. A big smile was plastered on his face as he saw Jiwon dressed up in a simple black v-neck shirt and jeans.

“So he is the one” he heard Gian said and he turned back to flash him a smile as he happily said “Yep! My only one.”

**

“Who is that?” Jiwon asked innocently though there is something edgy in his voice

“Gian.” Is Sunghoon’s only reply and every worries and fears that the older has been feeling since he arrived that morning only intensified. He cleared his throat and tried to ask Sunghoon but there’s a lump in his throat that is blocking him from asking the younger. Feeling the sudden change of aura around Jiwon, Sunghoon clung to him, backhugging him, stopping him from walking. “I love you” he softly said, tightening his hold around Jiwon. “so much”

Jiwon’s worries and fears dissipated as he held on the younger’s hand on his waist. He entwined his hands with Sunghoon’s as he asked, “Really?” with a smile forming on his face.

“Yes, really really. I love you so much.”

“Okay, no more pda. Let’s go.” Jiwon entangled Sunghoon’s hands around his waist but did not let go of his hand till they reached the area where Jiwon parked the car. As they entered the car, Jiwon also said to Sunghoon, “And I love you too so much.”

The medic team struggled to revive the patient but when they did, they immediately put an oxygen mask on the patient and monitored his vital signs as the ambulance made its way to the hospital. Doctors were on standby at the entrance as they waited for the medic team to roll down the bed carrying the patient.

The doctor was ready to assist and to instruct everyone but when he saw the face of the patient, he gasped “Oh my god, Kang Sunghoon!” the doctor fearfully shouted, stepping backwards as he did.

“Doctor Eun, we need to hurry the patient has lost so much blood.” One of the nurses said.

Putting aside his fright, Doctor Eun said with authority “Right. Faster.” On the way to the emergency room, the doctor has been shouting “Move, move, move!” to the people who are blocking their way. He was more emotional than before, one thing that the nurses has noticed but they didn’t point that out. He was about to enter the operating room when Doctor Jang Suwon came out and ushered the nurses inside.

“Move aside, I am incharge of Kang Sunghoon-ssi.”

“Fuck, Suwon! Who are you to tell me to move aside? And you can’t tell me I can’t be Sunghoon’s doctor because of my relationship with him. How about you, you know him well too! I am going to save Sung—”

But Doctor Jang only calmly looked at him in the eyes as he said “I will not allow you to operate on someone when you are shaking.” Doctor Eun Jiwon opened his mouth to say something but noticed his hands are shaking, he is in fact shaking. The nurses called for Suwon. He knows time is running so he took Suwon’s hand in his own shaking hands, looked him in the eyes and pleaded, voice breaking “Please Suwon. Please save him. Please.” Jang Suwon nodded as he went inside, the OR room closing behind him.

Eun Jiwon paced back and forth. He had called for Sunghoon’s family as soon as Suwon started the operation. He still cannot accept the fact that Sunghoon is inside, being operated on. He just talked to him a while ago, didn’t he? Telling him he is on his way to the hospital. Was it his fault? No. Kim Jaeduc, one of their friends who is a police officer has called him and told him the news about Sunghoon. He just didn’t tell him as soon as he recognized Sunghoon’s red car, because he himself was shaking when he approached the car. “Don’t worry, hyung, we have caught him.” he said, talking about the other driver.

“Jiwon oppa.” Jiwon turned around and was greeted by Yoonji’s and her mother’s crying face. “How is Sunghoon oppa?” he went near them and hugged them both. “Still being operated on. It’s alright, he is strong, he can make it. And it’s Suwon we are talking about. They’ll be finished soon.”

But it took three more hours before Suwon went out of the room. Jiwon felt dread because he couldn’t read what is on Suwon’s mind. But Suwon smiled slightly at him and he released the breath he didn’t know he has been holding. “He made it. But we still need to monitor him for the first 12 hours, it is still risky.” Suwon said to the family of Sunghoon who stood right beside him. Suwon clapped him on the back as he heard Sunghoon’s mom saying “Thank God” all over and over again. Slumping on the bench outside the OR, he calmed himself down.

“Thank you God.” he mumbled softly.

--

It was 8 o’clock in the evening when Sunghoon was rolled out from the operating room to his own room. All these times he was there to assist the nurses but he was eerily quiet and emotionless compared to the Eun Jiwon that they had witnessed earlier. He let Sunghoon’s family to look at him first. They went home an hour after, saying goodbye to him, they told him they’ll be back in the morning.

It was just then that his mask broke. With a painful expression, he went near the bed of Sunghoon and carefully held his hand. He broke down.

“You idiot.” he chastised. “Thank you for not giving up. What would I do without you?” he questioned, voice breaking. “Thank you thank you thank you for not leaving me. Sunghoon-ah, what would happen to me if you didn’t make it? I love you. I love you so much. Please don’t leave me.”

He can feel his hand was wet with somebody’s tears. He knows because he can hear someone crying and his hand felt so warm. But he felt so so tired; he couldn’t open his eyes so he went back on sleeping.

Sunghoon was dreaming.

Flashes of memories playing on his mind as he sleeps.

*

“Hoon-ah!” Little Jiwon called with tears on his eyes “You said you will never leave me!”

Little Sunghoon suddenly cried, shocking Jiwon. “I do not want to be apart from hyung!”

“Arasseo. When the time comes, I’ll come and get you. Or you can come and get me.” Jiwon said, wiping his tears away.

“I’ll come and get hyung.”

“Promise?”

“I promise.” He said, entwining their little pinky fingers together.

“Don’t forget about hyung, alright?”

“I won’t! Hyung and Sunghoonie will be together again.”

“Promise?”

“I promise, hyung.”

*

20 years have passed; Sunghoon came back to Seoul with his family. He had forgotten how it feels like to live in Seoul. It has been so long. He couldn’t remember anything when he was still living here.

One day he was on a shopping spree when a stranger who looked familiar called him. “Kang Sunghoon?” he turned around and saw three people standing an arm away from him. He looked around, hoping it was not him they were talking too. “Kang Sunghoon?” the person in the middle asked again in disbelief, not really believing that he is seeing the real thing. But he questioningly stare at him. “Uhh, do you know me? I’m sorry I don’t know you.”

“So you have forgotten.” He mumbled as he sadly gazed at him. “By the way, it is good seeing you in Seoul again. I’m Jiwon. We used to live in the same apartment building before, uhm, 20 years ago, I guess.”

“Oh! I’m sorry if I have forgotten about you, Jiwon-ssi. I couldn’t fully remember things and people I met back then when I was small. How about you guys, do we live in the same apartment building too?” he asked, his social skills acting up.

“Yes, we all live in the same apartment building before!” The bubbly looking one on the left side of the solemn guy stated. “I’m Jaeduc. You used to call me Duckie-hyung.”

“And I am Suwon. You can just call me Suwon. Well, you used to call me Suwon too.”

“Wah! It’s amazing how you guys can still remember me! I’m really sorry for not remembering you guys. But I might have seen your faces before no wonder you three seem familiar.”

“Do you want to have a cup of coffee with us? Our treat.” Jiwon asked, hopeful the he would say yes.

“Of course!”

*

“Why won’t you tell him, hyung?” he once heard them talking at the hospital. He was visiting them when he figured to just surprised them but seems like he was the one who was surprised. “You have been looking for him for 20 years. Twenty long years!”

“Let’s stop this topic, Suwon-ah.”

“Hyung! What topic?” He asked though he knows it is related to him. It has been five months since they have rekindled their friendship though in his side, they just started their friendship since still he can’t remember. He has seen photos of them on his album though so he knows they were really his friends when he was a child. Especially Jiwon, in each photo, he is always clinging to Jiwon. He just laughed it off but now, it seems like he can’t just laugh it off now.

“Nothing, Sunghoonie.” Jiwon smiled a sad smile at him. He hates that smile on his. He pouted, making him laugh. “Really, nothing. So, how’s work? Why did you come here instead of going home?”

“What? You don’t like it? Okay, I’m going home.” He pouted again, turning his back, he was ready to walk away when he heard Suwon.

“Yah, before you go, give us that food dangling on your hand. That’s ours, right?”

“Aish, you.” He shook his head, laughing .

*

Jiwon was with him as he visited his mom and Yoonji. Their Sunday’s has always been like this. Sometimes they’ll be with Jiwon’s mom too. But today, it is just the two of them visiting. He glanced at Jiwon and tried to calm his racing heart. He has been feeling weird when it comes to Jiwon lately. He tried to decipher the feeling he has for the older but still couldn’t understand it. So he just go with the flow.

But Yoonji caught on his feelings and she tried to talk to her brother.

“I don’t know.” He said once she was asked what’s she feeling towards Jiwon.

“Tell me, oppa. I might be able to help.”

“It’s just, my heart flutters when I am with him. I feel so alive when I can see him smiling.. and it makes me smile too. I do not want to see the look of hurt in his eyes. I just want him to be happy and—”

Yoonji squealed. “What!? What!?”

“You are in love, oppa.”
 

“WHAT?!”

*

After that talk with Yoonji, he tried to avoid the older. He became aware of his surroundings, of everything when he is with the older and he is not yet ready to face it, to face his feelings so he tried to ignore Jiwon’s call and texts.

But it seems like Jiwon has enough of him avoiding him, because one night after work, he went home only to see the older waiting for him at the door, with a determined look on his face. His heart flutters again when he sees Jiwon but that’s not his problem as of the moment, because it looks like he had anger the older.

“What is your problem?”

“What is what, hyung? Oh, long time no see, hyung.”

“That’s just it. What is your problem, Sunghoon? You just suddenly disappeared. You won’t even answer my calls or my texts. Did you get tired of us?”

“No, that’s not it hyung.” He said, licking his lips “How do I say this that it won’t sound weird.” He mumbled to himself.

“What?” Jiwon asked, voice rising.

“Let’s not talk here, let’s talk inside shall we?”

Jiwon sat on the sofa as he looked at him pacing in front of him, saying “Okay, you better start speaking now Kang Sunghoon bef—”

“I like you. I talk to Yoonji about it and she put some things on my mind and I got scared and embarrassed and I don’t know. I shouldn’t be feeling this way towards you hyung because why would I feel this way towards you? I mean I am in love!? Why does my heart flutters when I see you? Why do I suddenly smile when I see you smile. I do not want to see you hurting. And it’s my first time feeling this way so I got scared and embarrassed and I—” he was engulfed in a hug by Jiwon.

“Calm down, Sunghoon.” But he can clearly hear him smiling.

“Are you smiling? Why are you smiling.”

“Calm down first.” He said again, caressing the younger’s back. “Are you calm now?” he asked softly, he felt the younger nodded.

“How does it feel to be hugged by me?”

“Hyung, this is not funny. Can’t you feel my heart is about to burst!?” he honestly said making the older laugh. But Jiwon just tightened his hug to the younger.

“It’s alright.” He sighed. “Don’t you know how long I have waited for this moment to come?” he mumbled softly.

“What?”

“What I mean is, I like you too. I am in love with you too.”

And it made Sunghoon’s heart soar. It made him happy. He entwined his hands on Jiwon’s back and buried his face on his neck, smiling. “Why are you smiling?” Jiwon asked with a smile on his own face.

“I am just happy.”

“I am happy too.”

*

After a month of being together, Jang Suwon finally caught on.

“Finally.” He once told him when he visited Jiwon on the hospital.

“What finally.”

“I know you know. I’m happy for the both of you.”

“Thanks, Suwon-ah.”

*

“I love you” he whispered as he reached his climax

“I love you too” with one last thrust, Jiwon spilled inside him.

*

“Mom, Jiwon and I will be celebrating our 1^st anniversary at home tomorrow.”

“What, do you want me to cook?”

“No, I’ll just cook mom, just tell me what to do. I’ll go home today to do some grocery.”

“Aigoo, my sweet baby~”

“Yes yes, goodbye mom.”

*

“Jiwon-ah~”

“Yes, my hoonie?”

“I have told mom that we are going to celebrate our 1^st year anniversary at home tomorrow. I’m going grocery shopping today. Do you want to come?”

“Of course I will. Will you cook for me?”

“That’s a given.”

“Yes!” Sunghoon laughed at that. “By the way, I’m on my way to see you. Goodbye, love. See you later.”

“See you later, love~”

---

Jiwon woke up to someone patting him on the back. He looked up to see Sunghoon still sleeping, he turned around to see Suwon with a smile on his face.

“While you were sleeping, he had woken up. But I wasn’t been able to talk to him because he closed his eyes again. He is not in danger anymore, hyung.”

“Thanks Suwon.” He gratefully said to the younger. “Really, thank you.”

“Just doing my job as his doctor.” Suwon said as he went out of the door.

Jiwon leaned in and kissed Sunghoon on his bandaged forehead. “Happy 1^st anniversary, love.” He whispered, tearing again. He kissed Sunghoon’s hands next and then his cheeks. Sunghoon still has an oxygen mask on his face so he cannot kiss him on the lips yet. “I love you.” He said, taking Sunghoon’s right hand in his and kissing his palm.

“I love you too.” a weak reply was heard. He looked up and sees Sunghoon blinking his eyes at him.

“You are awake! Wait, I’ll call a doctor. Oh, I am a doctor. Oh hell, I’ll just call Suwon here, alright? Wait for me. Oh right, I can just push this button.” He all said in a haste, making Sunghoon laugh weakly.

“Are you alright, hyung? Calm down a bit.” he mumbled, Jiwon leaning down a bit to hear him speak.

“Yes, I’m alright.” He muttered, eyes tearing as he did. “I’m alright.” Kissing him on his cheek. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m sorry I made you wait for so long, I’m sorry I have forgotten about you, even though I promised…” he looked at Jiwon who was confusingly looking at him. “But here I am now. Even though it took me 20 years to come back… I did say I’ll come and get hyung, right?” Jiwon laughed and laughed but it became a sob in the end.

"Thank you for waking up.” He said, voice wavering.

After he said that the door opened and Suwon came in with two nurses. Suwon took his time to check Sunghoon at the same time smiling at him as he said thank you.

Jiwon stood in the corner, looking with a gentle smile on his face. All of his worries and nervousness are gone. Once Suwon was done, he went beside the younger again, taking his hands on his.

“I’m tired, hyung.”

“Sleep for now, I’ll be right here when you wake up.”

“Thank you, hyung. I love you.”

"I love you too." he kissed his right hand again. "so much."

Sunghoon sat on his bed as the door to his room opened. He looked up to see Jiwon walking towards him with an unreadable face. He stared at him questioningly.

“You are too kind for your own good.” Jiwon said with a sigh.

“So you were watching?”

“Of course, I was watching. And my blood is boiling right now. You should have just ignore those people who commented things like—”

“It’s alright hyung.”

“It’s not alright with me. You know Sunghoon—“ he started but stopped. He sighed instead as he caressed the younger’s face. “you are beautiful.”

“So you have read that comment. I have ignored that one.” He said, smiling as the older continued on caressing his face, his eyes locked on his.

“I know you have ignored it, still I want to say the truth to you. You are beautiful. You are handsomer than me.”

Sunghoon sighed, “Hyung”

“I know. I am handsome, I know.”

“Glad that you know.”

“But you are more handsome.” Sunghoon only smiled at that, at least his hyung knows he is indeed handsome. And hot “and hot.” Sunghoon’s smile grew bigger, seems like Jiwon has a hidden motive on coming to his room.

“No, you are hotter, hyung. “ He said as he kissed him on the cheeks.

“Only cheeks?” Jiwon asked him with a smirk.

“Did you come here to talk to me or do something with me?” Sunghoon said, laughing. “because if it’s the latter, I want to cuddle. I admit some comments made me sad.” Jiwon clicked his tongue at that. “But now that you are here, I am alright. You know hyung, you really know how to make me feel good.” he uttered, sweetly smiling at Jiwon whose smirk just grew wider at Sunghoon’s words.

“My dear Sunghoonie, of course I would know how to make you feel good.”

“Wait, I was not talking about that!” Sunghoon mumbled, cheeks turning pink

“What that?” Jiwon innocently asked, leaning down to the younger as Sunghoon pulled away, until his back hit his bed. He blinked as he looked at his lover who is now climbing on top of him.

“That that, what you are doing right now.” He answered Jiwon, looking at him with a raised brow.

Jiwon only laughed. “I’m sorry. I couldn’t resist on teasing you.”

“And here they say I’m a tease.” Sunghoon mumbled

“Well, you are a tease. That’s a fact.” Jiwon muttered and added, winking “And I am a tease, when it comes to you.”

Sunghoon laughed as he encircled his arms around Jiwon’s torso and buried his head on his neck. “I am alright now. Thank you.” He softly said. He caressed Jiwon’s back as he hummed the song Baby Baby. Jiwon returned the embrace. “Cuddles~ I love cuddles~” he added tiredly.

Closing his eyes, he heard Jiwon’s laugh and his declaration of love which always make his heart skip a beat.

“I love you.”

And they continued cuddling till they heard a knock on the door accompanied by Jaeduc’s voice, signalling the start of their day.

“Sunghoon-ah, you sit here” Sunghoon turned back to look questioningly at Jaijin. The older has been gesturing for him to sit beside him. He was about to walk towards Jaijin but he felt a tug and then he is being pulled backwards towards a chest. He looked sideward to see Jiwon eyeing Jaijin.

“No, he sits here, beside me.” Jiwon might have said it a little bit bitter though because Sunghoon raised a brow at him. He then mumbled “you will right?”

Sunghoon shook his head, he looked at Jaijin to see him shaking his head with an amused smile plastered in his face. Often these days, the older has been snatching him away from Jiwon, might be the reason Jiwon is being alert around him. Though he knows, he is just teasing their leader. And sometimes he goes along with him too. And they will laugh at how childish he becomes.

Jaijin might have been shocked if he doesn’t know how Jiwon behaves when he is around Sunghoon, but he knows, so he took everything with a stride. And Jaijin might not say it but he does found the flower of Sechskies beautiful. Aside from that, he can irritate their leader too, something that is always successful. Then they will have their playful banter. Everything is just their playful banter, he knows Jiwon knows. There might be some truth in it, who knows. EunKang will never know.

-

“Jaejin looks at you differently” Jiwon said as they were getting to bed one night.

“Oh really” Sunghoon mumbled, raising a brow as he looked at Jiwon.

“You might have noticed but he keeps on—“

“Hyung, he was just teasing you. You know that.”

“I know but I can’t help but think that he might have a hidden meaning on doing it.”

“Hyung,” Sunghoon sighed. “Jaijin hyung doesn’t like me like how you like me. Or love me like how you love me. How Jaejin hyung looks at me is different from how you look at me.”

“But you don’t know.”

“Trust me. I know.”

“How do you know? You don’t know how he looks at you.”

“Brotherly love. You know what that means, right hyung?”

“How can you distinguish it as a brotherly love?  You do not have someone to compare how he looks at you.”

“His eyes glints as he looked at me differ on how your eyes glint when you looked at me. Jaejin hyung’s eyes sparkle because he is happy, he knows he can mess with you. While your eyes sparkle because of love and happiness. And you know how in their eyes we are always one. And I might agree it is sometimes fun to mess with each other, don’t you agree too hyung?”

“Well yeah, sometimes. Just sometimes.” he mumbled. “Now let’s sleep. There is still something though but I don’t quite get it.”

“Don’t think too much.” Sunghoon softly said, kissing him on the lips. “Good night.” He added, adjusting a little so he can put his head on his neck and with his hands around Jiwon, he bid him another good night.

“Good night” Jiwon leaned down, noting that Sunghoon has already his eyes closed, he kissed him on the cheeks. He sighed, thinking about Jaijin and how he looked at the younger again. “Yeah, Sunghoon is right.” He leaned down again to kiss him on the lips, slowly at first but when he heard the younger’s moan, he groaned and proceeded to kiss him hotly.

“Okay that’s enough. Let’s sleep. I am sleepy.” Sunghoon drowsily said, tapping him on the chest. He only groaned in response, trying to calm himself.

There might be some truth in it, who knows. EunKang will never know.

Jiwon lost a bet. He had a bet with Sunghoon regarding their fanmeeting—whether it would be sold out in a few minutes or in days. He betted it would be within a few days but then their fans only gave the server a few minutes before it was sold out. Jiwon underestimated their fans. So now, here he is, in the salon, looking at his red hair.

“It looks good on you.” Sunghoon said, looking at him with a big smile on his face. “It really looks good on you, hyung. Now you are ready for the fan meeting~”

“Tch. If only Appa didn’t say yes.”

“He wouldn’t say no to me~” Sunghoon said in a singsong voice, he still has his hands on Jiwon’s hair, loving how the red locks look in his hyung. “I knew red would suit you.”

“Yeah yeah. But do I really look handsome?” Jiwon asked, uncertain. He was shocked to received a kiss on the cheeks instead as an answer. He looked around, hoping nobody noticed it “Yah, yah” he whispered, looking at Sunghoon in the mirror, the younger was looking back at him.

“You are handsome. And you look handsomer with the red hair.” He answered him with a wink. He only smiled in return; shy at the younger’s statement.

During that night, he uploaded his new look in his instagram adding a caption that it’ll be the first and the last time he’ll dye his hair… and I won’t bet with my hair again, he added in his mind.

-

It was the day for their fan meeting. After this day, he can return back to his black hair. They have an MC on their fanmeeting, they talk for things that they would be telling their fans before they went to have their makeup.

But this was not part of what they were talking earlier.

“Jiwon-ssi is red head!” the MC said

Jiwon mumbles to himself “Sunghoonie’s fault”

On the other hand, Sunghoon proudly said, “I successfully persuaded Jiwon hyung to dye his hair. Fans screamed at that (Uhh shippers screamed)

“But I thought Jiwon-ssi’s father—” the MC continued to ask but was interrupted by Sunghoon.

“He said yes when I asked though.” Sunghoon answered, a bit confused

“Of course he would say yes to you.” Jiwon butted in, as if he knows why, and well of course he knows why.

Sunghoon continued on as if he did not hear Jiwon “Then one thing lead to another and then ta-da~ we have a red-headed Jiwon!

Sunghoon was about to answer but Suwon jumped to the conversation saying, he meant that after the
 approval of Jiwon hyung’s father he was dragged to the salon afterwards. “Yes yes i was there.” He added before the MC could ask him how he knows. “Even Jaeduck and Jaejin were also there, right? Right?” Suwon asked the two or more likely commanded them to nod.

“Y-yes Ahahahaha” Jaeduc said,nodding, laughing awkwardly.

Sunghoon noticed that the others thought too much on what he said so he looked at Jiwon as he said “Oops” smiling at him as he smile wide as an apology.

Jiwon looked at him suggestively, eyes sparkling and speaking at him, “After this fanmeeting one thing will lead to another again.” He smirked.

Sunghoon stared back at him with wide eyes then he chuckled silently, he slowly licked his lips knowing that Jiwon was still side-eyeing him. “I’m looking forward to it. He uttered loud enough forgetting he has his mic near his mouth. He heard Jiwon’s laugh as the fans screamed at what he said, even though they didn’t know the meaning of it. He uttered for the second time for them, “I’m looking forward for this fan meet.”

-

Jiwon has Sunghoon’s back at the door as soon as it closed in front of the younger. His hands groping his arse as the younger has his hands at his hair, playing with his red locks. Lips locking, tongue mating, bodies grinding, --- Sunghoon reluctantly pulled away from Jiwon’s lips.

“Hyung, let’s slow down”

“No. This is your fault. You kept on teasing me earlier, you have prepared me fully well, my Sunghoonie~” he huskily said, leaning down to lick at his right earlobe. Sunghoon gasped, hands flattening at Jiwon’s back as the older slowly licked a trace from his ear to his neck.

Earlier

They were sitting on the table, with Jiwon beside him and the other three were sitting at the other side. He will never know why the other three doesn’t want to sit near them but it’s alright since it will make his mission easier. The fan meet has ended a while ago. They are now resting for a meeting after showering. Jiwon didn’t give a hint that he remembered their conversation earlier, so he got intrigued and also because he just want to tease the older. that’s why he did it, that’s why he went for it. He put his left hand at him, caressing him under the table. Even with his pants on, Jiwon can feel the warmth from Sunghoon’s hands protruding through his jeans. Half of his mind was on what Jaejin has been saying while the other half was on the hand of the person sitting beside him. He has both his hands on the table, Jiwon was about to stop the younger, to hold his wrist, when Sunghoon stopped. He glanced at him only to see a smirk on his face.

“Damn, you left me half-hard. And I feel so hot just by thinking about what you did.” Eun Jiwon uttered, fully sandwiching the younger’s body between his body and the wall. “So why were you teasing me?”

“I just want to. You know, try.” Sunghoon mutter, his hands on Jiwon’s back sliding up and down.

“Can you feel it?” Jiwon asked, leaning down to kiss his neck. “Can you feel little Jiwon down there, baby?” as he asked that he grind his lower body to Sunghoon, making the younger moan. “Yes, yes, moan for me, baby.” He added. And the way he talked seems to turn on Sunghoon more. He looked at the older lustfully and moan again. “You are so hot, don’t you know that? Especially when you have no clothes on.” And he grabbed the younger’s shirt up, throwing it at his back. Sunghoon looked at him in the eyes as he continued his dirty talking, fully turned on. He licked and bite his lips which urged the older to locked his lips to him.

“You are so sexy.” Sunghoon said, “Kiss me more.” He added as he entwined his arms on his neck, he kissed him this time, in a second, tongue invaded the older’s mouth. This time it was Sunghoon who grabbed the shirt of Jiwon up, undressing him of his shirt. Now that they were half-naked, both stumbled backwards towards the bed, Jiwon’s bed.

“One thing really did lead to another, right, my Sunghoonie?” Jiwon uttered, pushing Sunghoon to the bed. He climbed on top of him. With his hands on both sides of Sunghoon’s head, he added “now—

“You really look so sexy and handsome with that red hair of yours.” Sunghoon ran his fingers on his red locks, admiring the soft locks in his fingers. He still has his eyes on his red hair when Jiwon smirked at him.

“I am honoured to be admired by you my love but I need your lovin’ right now.” He said, smirking.

“Why are you spouting that kind of language, hyung.” He laughed but answered “Gladly, my love.”

In an instant Jiwon leaned down to capture Sunghoon’s lips in a fully hot kiss while his hands went down to unbutton his pants, all this time Sunghoon too has been trying to unbutton his’.

As they successfully unbutton their partner’s pants, they dove in towards each other, hungrily. They had their hands all over the other, caressing, all the while their lips are still on each other. Then they parted only to breath. Jiwon let Sunghoon breath, as he moved towards his neck, sucking the juncture between his neck and shoulder. “Hmmm, are you in for a long night?”

he asked the younger but didn't wait for his reply as he kissed him again, fiercely. He took hold of Sunghoon's member as he opened the younger's mouth with his tongue. His tongue's action mimicking what his hands has been doing as of the moment, preparing his hole. Sunghoon parted his mouth from Jiwon, moaning. "Hyung~"

"Yes, love."

"Come inside me, right now." 

He obeyed. He wiped his fingers on the bed sheet as he took hold of his own member and guide it inside Sunghoon's hole. He knows he haven't fully prepared the younger but Sunghoon wanted it now, right now and to be honest, doing it roughly excites him. He slowly entered the younger, fully aware at how Sunghoon's face contorted in pain. Jiwon felt guilty for being too excited. "I'm sorry." he said, reaching out for his hands that are gripping the sheets and kissed them. "Only a bit more." he added, and was answered by Sunghoon's shake of the head.

"Don't be sorry. It doesn't hurt much. Go on." the younger said. As soon as he is fully inside, he waited for the younger to say move but instead it was the younger who moved first.

"Sunghoon--"

"Move" he grunted at first but as Jiwon moved together with him, he moaned in pleasure.

Finding the rhythm that they both love, they moved together in sync.

And so they proceeded on doing some loving till tomorrow morning.

The afternoon sun found its way through a fully curtained room. An alarm was heard as the clock tick at 3 o'clock. It is time to wake up but two people on a king-sized bed didn't bother to wake up at all. Hands wrapped around each other, the two felt blissful for the week-off that were given to them. It has been a hectic two months for Sechskies with promotions here and there. They are happy and not complaining at all for they can see their fans and can perform as Sechskies, but still, even though they see each other everyday, there is still that longing, they still long to be with just each other, just the two of them together.

A phone rang from the bedside table and Jiwon, the first to be awake eversince the clock strikes  3 PM,  took a hold of it and turned it off. Not wanting any disturbance and not wanting Sunghoon to wake up from the sound of it. He has been staring at the younger for a few minutes now. Every time he woke up early, he would trace Sunghoon's face, he has always like the shape of the younger's face, he would trace the younger's eyebrows with his fingertips carefully as if he hadn't done it for a thousand times already, and down to his eyes, slowly to his nose, smiling to himself when the younger's nose scrunched up. He would always trace Sunghoon's lips lastly, always amazed by how soft the younger's lips is under his fingertips.

It's not a secret how smitten he is with the younger. Every move from the younger looks cute, every smile, and every laugh makes him laugh too, he is proud with the younger and it always shows on his face. He is just so in love that he couldn't and wouldn't hide it. And he knows he always has this smug look when the younger look at him for confirmation that what he is doing is right, he always motivates the younger and makes the younger feel that he is there at his back. Doing these things give him sense of satisfaction.  Sometimes it amazes him, other times, well, yes, he feels smug, pleased.

After his fingertips, he traced Sunghoon's face again, this time with his lips. And as always, he would savor his time when it comes to his lips. But this time around, as soon as his lips touched the younger's, Sunghoon immediately answered his kiss with a soft one.

He smiled. "You are awake." He softly said to the younger

"As soon as i felt someone kissing my nose." Sunghoon said drowsily.

"Still sleepy?" He asked, still softly, on which the younger nodded. "Then let me kiss you awake." And before Sunghoon could even nod, he was already kissing the younger. They exchanged soft kisses at first but it heightened escalatedly. Passion was more exchanged from the two. Taking in what the other is giving and in exchange, giving back to the other in equal passion. Soon they felt the heat, not from the afternoon sun but the familiar heat that they always feel when they are this close and intimate. Sunghoon stopped kissing Jiwon and breathed, he let the older traced kisses down to his neck, arching his neck back to give him more space. Kisses from Jiwon became more intense when the other began on sucking on his neck. The younger let out a breathy moan as he called the older. Jiwon answering with a deep and long one making him arch his back with a long moan on his own. "Hyung, stop. Let's eat, Im hungry."

"Okay" Jiwon answered, leaving Sunghoon's neck only to go back on his lips. They had a full five minute tongue mating before they stopped and went out of their room for brunch.

---

"Thanks for the meal~" Jiwon said. Planting a soft kiss on Sunghoon's lips, he added "thanks for cooking our brunch~"

"You're welcome, hyung~" Sunghoon answered with a soft kiss on his own. "What should we do for today? We woke up late again."

"If you're planning on meeting the others right now, the answer is no. Let's just stay here, Hoony-ah~ it's too tiring to go outside. And I just want to be here with you~"

"I was not going to suggest on meeting the others. I want to just stay here with hyung too, you know~"

"Good~"

"Good very good~!"

Jiwon laughed. "You are hanging out with the Winner kids, you are catching up with them."

"They're a whole bunch of funny kids. Im just being a good hyung~" Sunghoon said, laughing.

Jiwon stretched out his hand, asking for Sunghoon's glass and when he gave his glass, he filled it up with the apple juice he was holding, saying "Drink more Hoony" as he did. The younger just sweetly smile at him as thanks.

Jiwon volunteered on washing the dishes while he told Sunghoon to just stay at the living room. The younger followed his instruction and he looked for a channel to watch some drama. There was no drama on his taste aside from the replay of Goblin. He was watching the tear-jerker scene when Jiwon came to the living room. The older sat beside him and back-hugged him with his hands on his stomach. He was so focused on the drama he was watching when he felt soft kisses pressed on his nape and his hands on his stomach has been caressing bare skin. He still has half of his attention on the drama when Jiwon moved from his nape to his shoulder, sucking and kissing.

“Hyung”

“Just focus on your drama, Hoon-ah.”

“Actually, give me a kiss. I need a kiss.” He ordered which made the older smile seductively at him. Then he proceeded on giving the younger a kiss. A kiss that made him wants for more. And more. And more. Tongues connected, teeth clashing but they didn’t care. The fire that has lit up a while ago has been gradually growing strong. And it is the only thing that matters as of the moment.

“I miss you. I miss this. I miss us.” Jiwon said, talking between kisses.

“I miss you too. So much” Sunghoon answered, kissing Jiwon passionately to prove his point.

Only a minute after their kissing intensified, clothes are being lifted and thrown.  They moved from the sofa to their bed, blindly. They have noted a vase has been broken on their way to their room. But the vase can wait, the cleaning can wait, their feelings towards each other cannot. So they dove in to each other’s arms, never wanting to let go.

PG-18

He has his one hand down the younger’s member and the other on his hips while he is trailing kisses on Sunghoon’s neck down to his nipples. The younger has his hands at the back of his head, urging him to go on. He loves hearing Sunghoon’s moan. He looked up just in time to see Sunghoon sticking his tongue out to wet his lips. Aside from Sunghoon’s moan, he loves his tongue too. That thick hot appendage and that slick mouth of his when wrapped around his hard member, sucking him... he groaned just by thinking about it.

”Suck me.” He ordered the younger.

As soon as he heard Jiwon’s  words, he flipped their bodies and sat on his stomach, his own hard member pointing towards Jiwon with the older’s hand still around it, and the other still on his hips. Sunghoon took a hold of Jiwon’s erection while his other hand dances on his chest, teasing his nipples. He knows Jiwon like it this way, when he tease him like this. And he likes it this way, till he would hear the older calling him in a moan.

“Sunghoon” Jiwon called in a moan. Without further ado, Sunghoon took Jiwon’s mouth with his own, with his tongue sneaking inside to tease Jiwon’s own but Jiwon caught his tongue and sucked on it. Then the battle of dominance began. They stopped only to breathe then went back on their tongue mating, with hands busy caressing each other’s bodies. After a while, Sunghoon trailed kisses down to Jiwon’s neck till he reached his nipples. Catching one nipple with his mouth, he played with it with his tongue, while the other was played with his hand. He loves it when he hears Jiwon moan, it would always make him feel powerful, he made him feel this way, he thought. As soon as he left his nipples, he trailed down to his stomach, caressing the skin on his way. He anticipates it, when he would reach his destination and he knows Jiwon is anticipating it too. He looked up to see Jiwon already looking at him, as if telling him don’t you dare stop and he just smiled sweetly at him, the total opposite of what he is doing as of the moment, taking him in the mouth. It just made the moment become more erotic. Sunghoon expertly sucked him, knowing where and how he likes it. He grasped the bedsheet, groaning. And not wanting to finish early, without pleasuring the younger, he hastily grabbed Sunghoon, flipped him over and kissed him, hard. The temperature around them has risen drastically; sweat trailing down their bodies as they moved together. Moans and groans and bodies slapping are the only noises that can be heard. Jiwon kept his eyes on Sunghoon, clearly loving how his expressions changed when he hit that spot.

“I love you.” He said to the younger as he reached his peak.

Arching his back while moaning loud, the younger was able to utter his “I love you” till he cannot speak and just move his body together with Jiwon.

Well spent but still with fire still burning, they continued their dance till dawn breaks.

ONE

He loves to be near him. And the space beside him is the space that he has claimed to be his own, only his, but the others seem to not notice... or are they trying to mess with him? They really are messing with him, aren’t they?

“What’s with the frown, hyung?” Sunghoon asked him one day on their dressing room when the arrangement was not on his taste again.

“Huh? I am not frowning” He replied,

“I know you though. And you are frowning.”

“You are too far.” He said truthfully.

“Aigoo, our hyung. Are you trying to be cute? We are just a sit away.”

“Tell Jaeduck to move.” He whined to Sunghoon

“Okay, then I’ll tell Suwon to sit beside you.”

“Hoon-ah~” he whined more.

TWO

He loves it when Sunghoon would gravitate towards him unconsciously. Sunghoon always sat beside him on their fansign event, unconsciously following his movements on where to sit. Body gravitating towards him like he is the younger’s center, he smiles, satisfied. Without caring even when fans are around, he played with him, touched him not too subtly like how he used to do when they are in public, and smiled and laughed with him, his expression shining. Satisfaction can be clearly seen. And with Sunghoon not caring if he has been too touchy with him just fuelled his desire to tell the world he owns him, especially the space beside him. Can’t the others see it is supposed to be this way?

 Well seems like they are really messing with him. The fifth and last fansign, they were end to end. He badly wanted to strangle Suwon and Jaeduck for claiming the two sits beside him and near him. He was sure they were messing with him on how they subtly doubled up their pace when they were on the stage.

Sunghoon-ah, why are you being dense and just continued on sitting there at the end beside Jaejin when you saw that the space beside me was occupied by Suwon? I thought I was your center! Yah! Look at me, please! Yah!  

He whined in his mind.
 

THREE

They are about to guest on Thinking of Oppa. And Jiwon is tired of always scolding the other members in the dressing room or on their meetups about the sitting arrangement. And they just always laughed at him. Telling him he is too clingy.

He got tired on stopping his hands... on strangling J-Walk.

But now that he have found a way on how to claim his right spot, now that he knows what to do, no one and he mean it, no one can stop him now. It is easy. Just stand behind Sunghoon or walk together, in sync with Sunghoon, it always works.

And Jiwon, just always be alert. Secure your position when you see the others doubling their pace.

And as a punishment for those times that they mess with him, he cut them again and again and scold them again and again on air.

Left side or right side, as long as he is beside his Hoony, he doesn’t care who will be at the other side. Well, if that person on Sunghoon’s other side does something, he can always reach the other side with his hand, you know.

Author's note:  The plot sprung from the photo of Hoonie from The Photo Collection. This is my first time writing a smut... well, not really smut smut. I have written a teasing one before but not really this kind so this is a challenge for me. Hahaha! Thank you for collaborating with me Indiiea!

A COLLABORATION WITH INDIIEA OF ONEHALLYU


He is a model. He is just a photographer. And a plain one at that. How can he notice someone like him? Well, aside from the days where he become his photographer for that one shooting, that one shooting, as cliche as it sound, that made him fell hard for him. Okay, okay he admits he has a crush on the man, okay? But that doesn't mean he cannot order the man around on what poses he wants him to do. He might as well let his fans know how heavenly this man they idolized is. Pretty sure they already know that but he looks so damn seductive and looks so damn otherworldly in that photoshoot that damn. Just damn. He might have let him see all of the pictures he have taken of him but there was this one photo that will always be his favorite, and will be his little secret. For now. The one where he was smirking at him, or at the camera, not at him. He is not guilty at all for not releasing that one. At least he already gave the one where he was smiling and waving at him, okay at the camera, to the editor of the magazine. 

"Hyung," someone was waving a hand in front of his face "i've been here for five minutes and have been staring at you for five minutes, you know. Where did your mind go this time?" Kang Sunghoon asked the older.

"Just thinking about something. Why did you call me out here, by the way." Eun Jiwon answered.

"Hyung, I want you to be my photographer again. I heard this photoshoot will be near a waterfalls, i might be going half naked too. You captured me beautifully last time. I would like you to capture me more beautifully this time."

"Sure." he answered directly. Oh wait. Oh hell no.

"Thanks hyung! You are an amazing photographer. And a handsome one too!"

"I'll just pretend I didn't hear that."

"But it's true. And let's just say we have chemistry~ so it'll be a great experience for sure" the younger said. Jiwon blinked.

Okay, Sunghoon might be saying that innocently but the look on his eyes says otherwise, or maybe it's just his wishful thinking. "I guess that's true." he half-confessed, making the younger smile at him brightly. "What do you want to order, hyung?" And their day went by with the both of them talking and laughing at a cafe they frequently visited.

Might as well prepare myself for this new project. He might not admit it for now, but he is so damn happy that they are close, very very close. Might as well confess and might as well make him mine.

I cannot wait to make him mine. 

He swallowed thickly as Sunghoon changed pose, stretching out his back and leaning back his head. Sunghoon stared at Jiwon with smoky eyes, his mouth slightly open.

EUN JIWON 

Eun Jiwon has been feeling restless the whole day. Seeing the performance of his son, his father stopped him from continuing his work. He entered his office and told him, "Do what you really want to do."

"I'm doing it now" Jiwon answered.

"No no, you have been distracting your colleagues with your attitude and performance today. Stop what you are doing and do what you really want to do."

"Dad, I don't understand. What are you talking about?"

"Should I spell Kang Sunghoon ssi's name for you?"

JIwon was surprised. "Huh --what?"

"You don't know what you have done, I see." His father sighed, while getting the document that Jiwon sent to his secretary earlier. "Care to tell me why it is Sunghoon's name instead of mine in here?"

Stupefied, Jiwon was about to apologize for his mistake when his father asked him again to do what he really wants to do. "Get back here with a clear mind." His father added.

"Y-yes, Dad."

A minute after his father was gone, Jaijin went inside his office. "So, how did it go?" Looking at Jiwon's raised brows, he smacked his head. "Yah!" making Jiwon whine "Ah, hyung~"

"I was already inside Dad's office when I saw your mistake. He must have seen my expression so he took it and came here."

"You should have checked the document before giving it to Dad. What kind of secretary are you?" Jiwon answered, Jaijin smacked him in the head again.

"How would I know you would put Sunghoonie's name in there. I thought you are professional." he clicked his tongue at Jiwon then added "I've noticed you have been antsy since this morning. Dad must be right then. Do what you really want to do."

"But hyung" he gestured towards his table full of paper.

"Clear your mind first. You can never finish all of this. Also it's Friday. Just come back here on Monday."

"I won't be late, I promise." Jiwon said, already running towards the door.

"That was fast." After Jaijin said that, Jiwon came back with a sheepish smile he said "I forgot my things." His hyung just rolled his eyes and shake his head.

---

He had second thoughts working on a place away from Sunghoon. But it is needed. It is either the company in Seoul or in Hawaii. Dad's order, he thought. So he applied, passed the interviews and landed on his position on their company now. Two days ago, he got promoted. His promotion might be done by his father though. He thinks it is done so that his father and brother can evaluate and watch how he works personally. What a pain.

Also, he doesn't like to always rely on his family. But maybe he has been pushing himself too much that his family needs to stop him to rest for a while. He knows they are already proud of him. He looks at his watch. One more hour to go. He closed his eyes, lulled by the whispers of the people in the train. 

I miss you.


----

It was supposed to be a surprise. So he waited, without calling, the younger to be home. He waited... and waited... and waited but Sunghoon is not yet home. It is already 9 o'clock in the evening. He is becoming more and more restless. He couldn't remember how many times he went out of Sunghoon's apartment and watch the street for Sunghoon. Still, no Sunghoon. 

He was about to call him when he saw a young man walking towards the building. He smiled, relieved. At the same time making his heart beats fast. I miss you I miss you I miss you. He kept on saying.

But then he took a detour. Jiwon blinked. Where are you going? I am here. He saw the younger going to the park adjacent to his apartment building. As the younger sat on the swing, Jiwon was already on the elevator, panicking. Jiwon has been sensing something is odd with Sunghoon's voice this past few days. He seems sad but is trying to hide it from him. He seems like he wants to say something but is stopping himself. He is not thinking what I am thinking, is he? Oh no no no. He can't. No.

So he called the younger. Dumbfounded by his questions, he told him to turn around. And there he is, the most important person to him. The one who makes him laugh, who makes him smile, who keeps on doing aegyo that he cannot resist. The one who is his half, the one he will never ever let go.

And he needs to stop this sadness that is eating his Sunghoon up. (He is the only one who can.)

"Of course, Sunghoonie, you can laugh, you can cry, you can even get angry at me." Jiwon said while walking slowly towards the frozen man who is gripping the handle of the swing too hard."You can kiss me... you can hold me." He added as he slowly untangled Sunghoon's hands and entwined his hands' with his, pulling him closer to him. "And you can make me only yours. I am all yours, only yours." he ended, slowly bringing his face closer to Sunghoon.

"Hyung, how, why, what... you are here"

"I am" 

Then their lips met. Passionately, they shared a kiss, filling up the one month of not seeing each other. They tasted their longing and desperation on their kiss, the bittersweet taste of fear and insecurities that the other might have a changed of heart ebbing away.

"You are smiling." Jiwon said.

"So are you, hyung."

"Are you crying?" Jiwon asked, wiping a tear that has escaped his eyes

"So are you, hyung." he answered, putting his thumb on his hyung's face, drying his face from his tears

"I love you, Sunghoonie."

"So do I, I love you, Jiwon"

"We'll meet again."

"I'll be waiting."

"Hoon-ah, are you sending me away now?"

"No no no im just answering you, hyung. But really hyung, we will meet again"

"I will be waiting." he answered with eyes shining, and smile so relieved that Sunghoon realized he was not the only one who was afraid and being eaten up by insecurities. "I love you" he said, making Jiwon smile geniunely, making him smile that smile that he loves.


"Let's go home. I have been waiting for you for two hours you know. Where were you?" He asked the younger, slinging his arm around his shoulder, bringing him close as they walked towards Sunghoon's apartment, while Sunghoon has his arm around his waist.

"I was out with Jaeduck and Suwon. I miss you." Sunghoon said, looking at him with a look that made him groan.

"I want to kiss you." he mumbled, looking back at the younger.

"What?"

"I miss you too. So much. More than you'll ever know." He said instead as they entered the elevator. Inside, he pulled the younger closer and Sunghoon put his head on his shoulder, sighing he added "I miss this."

"How long are you going to be here?"

"I was told to return on Monday." he said with a big smile. "And before you ask, hyung told me. I was being unproductive there because i miss you so much. I need my Sunghoon fix." he added, hugging the younger, sniffing him. They went out in the elevator and entered Sunghoon's apartment with genuine smiles pasted on their faces.

"I need my Eun Jiwon fix too." Sunghoon said softly making  him gaze at him lovingly.

"We can arrange that. We have time."

"And you'll be waiting." Sunghoon added, he knows Jiwon knows what he is talking about. He will be waiting till he graduates before they can be together again... well aside from surprise moments and visits like this. Maybe next time, it will be his turn to surprise him.

"I'll be waiting. For you, I will be waiting."

"And I, too, for you. I love you." the younger answered with a smile.